Q&A: I have found great success with observing and letting go of emotions that arise, but I am having a hard time getting the same results with tiredness or other physical problems.
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Student: More and more, I've been the last few months I've been developing in the felony with emotions. Just take notice that it's an emotion and not get attached with it, or at least certainly increase the amount of attachments. But today I've been feeling very tired. And as I started meditating, I started noticing, oh, I've got a whole story about the state of tired.
I'm very attached to this being tired. I'm worried about this being tired and what I face and what effect, so on and so on. Oh, this is I can perhaps work with this. Like I've worked with emotion, but it was no letting up. It just kept being real. And yeah, had difficulty even locating the tiredness.
Like it's not even like necessarily a physical sensation. So I'm so aware that it's a story I'm so aware that I'm making a problem out of some small amount of physical sensation. Have you got any words of wisdom about reducing physical step?
Culadasa: It's physical tiredness or you're talking about
Student: physical tire views,
Culadasa: as you can feel it.
Student: I can feel it, but I think mostly it's the whole big story. There's a certain little bit of a slow missing dullness, but I think mostly it's a story mostly. It's what if this, and now I'm gonna have to deal with that. And man.
I'm not, I don't buy it now and you can feel like they're not releasing from it either.
Culadasa: That's wonderful that you can see how there's a little bit of feeling in your body and your mind makes up all of those stories about it's really great. Just to see how that works. Yeah. I'm aware of it all day.
It's been real.
Okay. The other thing to notice. So as your non-acceptance side, you're wanting it to be different and going away not be there. And is there maybe a little bit of judgment about story too?
One side's notice that it was not real. Yeah. I should be able to
I saw it. I thought I knew better
get my experience with the last couple of months is when I notice, then I'm getting better and better release. So this time I noticed that. And so I said, oh, maybe physical stuff is different. Maybe I better ask because of these food that I have not tried to with anything physical. And I even did a little Kellogg.
He's oh yeah. And I went forth as I'm getting older, my body gets sore more easily. I've been holding on to that too. And then I started noticed thinking, yeah there's a whole series of physical stuff then attached to. This would be very useful it to be able to release from nice this one out that well.
And how does this to get to achieve a release from that? You have to accept it. Yeah. So you have to write that mindful awareness continue to be free flying soaring Eagles, like rather than getting snagged down to the reactions to that's really good. Yeah. So watch that. And I, to recognize.
The subtler layers of attachment that they're hard. There's, you can become attached to being able to let go of saying
you have to let go of that attachment to
yeah, that's absolutely free to is not attachment.